to the scheme with the bf this week. I’m gona have to sleep with one eye open clutching a samurai sword haha!

to see about finally getting around to finishing my hair dressing qualifications. Yay!

I find out if my bf goes to prison. I think it’s worse because although we have known each other since like xmas we have only got together recently and now he might have to go away for god knows how long :(

I have re subscribed yet again. 

I think it’s just cos it makes me feel loved getting things through the post mwahahaha!

have been lost by the courier and they are sold out :(

I have been using them for half an hour a day for 6 days now and my teeth look amazing already! Fair enough they weren’t all that discoloured but I’ll definitely be buying more!

For those who asked I got them from ebay. I have had no problems or sensitivity with them and they are so easy to use.

So H & I are completely over. He has changed so much and become all about making money. I told him I’d rather be dirt poor and have him around but he wasn’t interested and seeing him for a couple of hours a week isn’t a relationship.

There is someone new on the horizon but it’s complicated so I’m keeping it to myself!

The drama is mounting up and I haven’t even left the house!

H & I are supposedly together but he works 6 days a week on commission and makes no money. I never see him and now all he talks about is work and money. I have no idea what to do because it feels like I hardly know him anymore.

Also a friend did something really stupid because I left him on a night out and now he is facing jail. I am worried sick because he has lost his job, a lot of friends and now I have no idea if I should stand by him or not. No one was hurt or anything but I feel like it was my fault.

:(

Now I have went through the trauma of a bowel perforation, temporary ileostomy & ileostomy reversal I am adamant that I will completely change my lifestyle to minimise the onset of my crohns.

In the end I know it will be down to genes, biology and I guess fate but there is plenty I can do to help. The obvious is no smoking, alcohol or drugs. Diet is a little harder. I had been vegetarian for over 10 years prior to my first surgery but I was so ill I started eating meat again and haven’t stopped. To me red meant is a no no but I have a lot more research to do into the benefits of white meat, fish, vegetarian & vegan diets.

Feeling a bit rough but nothing compared to my last surgery.

Still can’t believe I don’t have my ileostomy anymore :)

Getting nervous for Tuesday but still really excited!

Up early for packing, bath & hair washing.